Friday, October 24, 2014

Life and Social Anxiety

Social Anxiety affects us all in one way or another. I know it has affected me since I was very young. I've always been shy around people. I never had many friends, except for a selected few. I grew up abused by other classmates. I never defended myself when it came to verbal abuse. I just knew that no one could abuse me physically. I always stood up for myself in that regard. But I still felt awkward and ugly most the times.

Then I grew up a bit, and realized that they were just jealous. I wasn't that bad looking, I thought I look decent; but, I was still very quiet. Some girls had crushes on me, but I was too shy to do anything about it. I had my first girlfriend at the age of 16. I'll never forget her.

But now I'm 30 years old. I can see things more clearly. I now know that I have a disorder called "Social Anxiety." I have something I need to work on. But to be honest, I'm okay with being that way. I have accepted my shyness as a part of me. I don't wish to be different. I am okay with my solitude. I feel free to do what I want.

I encourage everyone to accept who they are. Enjoy your shyness. Get a hobby and have fun on your own. Now, if you feel lonely and want to be around people, but Social Anxiety will not let you, then you need to work on it. Talk to a therapist about it. Otherwise, have fun on your own!