Disappear Again

I am the worst at this
Stupid idea of free
I have no dignity
I wish I was dead

I can't understand
Why I'm so stupid
I can comprehend
I'm just retarded

The world passes me
Like a bullet train
I can't let me be
I want to disappear again

I am Too Drunk

I am too drunk.

I hope my spelling is right.

I have a soul that needs to say

anything, but just something to say.

I can't contain my head,

I can't contain my mind.

Who am I?

All that I can talk to is I.

Alone within these walls.

Alone within myself.

It's like I can't be.

It's like there is no me.

Though I am drunk I still feel.

I feel that I am drunk.

I also can't help to feel,

to feel that I am alone.

I am too much of me to hide.

The blanket fell too short.

There is no hole in the ground.

Reality is not my fault.

I feel the urge to burn.

I feel the urge to cry.

The urge to say

that I am at least alive.